Christmas

Christmas was not too bad. I did end up taking a sleep aid. It was a generic brand called "sleep aid". Lowercase like that and everything. It worked like a charm. Man was I hyper before Christmas. But I was even more hyper afterwards. So glad it was over, I was just bouncing off the walls. Plus, I guess I'd had a lot of sugar. I painted my nails red for Christmas and now they seem very.... visible. It's strange. Oddly, everyone else was tired but me. They had all gone to Midnight Mass. I almost enjoyed Christmas this year. It's different when you're awake. I haven't been awake at Christmas in about a decade it seems to me. YOWZA. And tonight is the full moon so I am not any less hyper today. Weeeeeee!!!!! I just watched a bunch of Buffy and Angel music videos last night. That made me more hyper too. Then I thought of making a video maybe, but I realized I'm TOO hyper for that. Too scattered. Maybe after the full moon has gone away. But then I know I'll just get back to working on my online businesses, cuz they need to be really overhauled and jump-started. That's where I need to put my focus. And in the summertime, online sales go way down because people are outside in the warm weather instead of online. So I always take a break from business then, and that's how I ended up making music videos last summer. I swear I thought it would be a year round thing, but then the cold weather came back and I felt very serious and business minded. It's weird. I do have plenty of great video ideas and I even bought equipment to make video making faster and easier. (Extra long cables and I increased the RAM on my computer! All for video making!) I don't feel like making paragraph breaks today. Anyway.... sigh. Hyper. Okay, one paragraph break.

Phew! Space, I can breathe. One more.

Weeeeeee!!!!!!

I am hungry. I need breakfast. I need the soundtrack to "Garden State" too. It sounds good. But I don't think my gift certificates will arrange in a way to make that possible without my driving across town. I don't want to buy it at Walmart because they censor their CDs. RUDE!!!!! Anyway. I'm getting an "I need food" headache, so I'd better go. Happy Holidays, everyone!

Chris on 12.26.04 @ 12:11 pm [link]

"Two yutes"

"Two what?" "Oh, excuse me your honor, two yoooouths." Hehe. Love that. Hate Christmas. T minus ten days until detonation.... What is "T minus"? They always say that in science fiction space vehicle explosion scenes. Woa. I just looked it up and found a bunch of other people using it like I did and none of us probably knowing what it means. Hmm. Anyhoo.

I need chocolate. Nah. I need sleep. Sure. I can't sleep when it's dark outside. It's a thing. A paranoia post-traumatic-stress thing. Yay! Oh well. I'm trying to knock myself out with dairy. That's my plan. I tried sleep deprivation to make myself sleep at night and be awake in the day. That just resulted in me not getting much sleep at all for a few days. Wooey! So, I went and bought nachos and ate them for breakfast, and now I'm going to go to the store to buy cheese slices so I can put them on everything. Except my cereal. Bluck! Dairy makes me very sleeeeepy.... I don't want to take a "sleep aid" because what if there is a fire and I can't wake up? Not good! So, here we are.

And I'm hungry. I'll eat something in a minute. I put up my tiny tree last night. A fake one. 3 or 4 feet high. My grandma bought it for me. Awwwwwwww. I made up my Christmas list months ago and her name is on it, cuz I was sure she'd still be around at Christmas. But no. I didn't cross her name off the list, though. It just seemed too weird. Crass. I don't know. Something.

I need to brush my teeth. I need to replace two lightbulbs. I wonder if the young healthy guy at the taco place where I bought my nachos sees a lot of 30-40 something overweight women going through the drive-thru getting too much food so they can drown their sorrows in it. What?! I'm just saying! There was me, and then a large woman in the car behind me too, so I wondered. But I swear I'm not drowning my sorrows. I'm just trying to get to sleep. Maybe it's a similar thing, though, eh?

You ever let your mind wander just before sleep and you see some pretty weird imagery? I mean you probably can't help your mind wandering just before you drop off. But sometimes things get so weird when my thoughts are being transformed into my dreams. Woa. Or my thoughts are blending into my dreams. Whatever. And it wakes me back up. "What the hell was that?!!" Then back to sleep. Sigh. When I'm eating dairy I just drop right off to sleep. Plunk. When I'm vegan, though, my mind works too fast and I have too much energy. Bzzzzz! When I exercise the same thing happens. I have too much energy and not enough things to spend it on. Buzz, buzz, buzz. I have to find the right balance someday. Cuz exercise and veganism are healthy. Maybe I should meditate. Hmm. I wonder if monks and nuns are holding the world afloat with their meditations on world peace and happiness. Even if they don't cause world peace exactly..... Woa.

Anyway. I wish I could make videos again, but I'm not in the right place. Winter freaks me out too much. Probably the lack of daylight. I feel much calmer in the bright shiny summertime. Sigh. Oh well. I'll get to it again eventually.

I have to go now. I gotta eat and go to the store. Adios, muchachos.

Chris on 12.15.04 @ 06:38 pm [link]

Get thee to a nunnery

The title has no point. I just love that line. I've had the flu for the past few days. But now it seems to be over. But I'm a bit paranoid that it may come back. I'm afraid to eat junk food or get up early. Bah! I still have a little headache from it. I never get the flu, but whatever. Stress? Maybe. Bluck.

I got a new browser. Mozilla Firefox. It's excellent. Much faster than IE. The bookmarks could use a little work, but I love how fast it is. Totally worth it! If only Google would make a toolbar for it. ("Totally worth it" sounds like it cost something. It did not. )

Umm. Now I would like to go back to bed. I got up early. I'm trying to train myself to be a day person for the month of December so Christmas won't be a big stressful day. Usually, I have an hour of sleep and then I have to get up and go do presents with the family. I'm okay for a while, but about 2-3 hours in, I always get the giggles. Damn it! On Christmas I'm always at my father's house when that happens. But I also had to get up early for my Grandma's funeral, and I'd only had a half hour of sleep. Luckily the giggles didn't kick in until after the funeral, when we were all having food in the church basement. No one there was gloomy or somber, so it was okay. Geez.

My muscles are sore. From flu. Why does that happen? My arms and legs and neck and whatever. It's not even that bad. I feel so complainy. My scalp itches too. Like crazy! When I think about it. I read that illness can cause that. Or stress. How weird is that? Of all things. It's only been since the flu began. So I blame flu. I'm gonna use a super moisturizing conditioner in the shower today and see if that cures it. Or helps. I put aloe vera gel on it, witch hazel on it. Each thing seems to help for a little while, then it's back. Probably just cuz I think about it. Yikes. Oh, I'm tired. "Sleep, sleep. Poppies, sleep." (Wizard of Oz.)

I should eat food. I haven't yet today. Then take a shower. Then go back to sleep....zzzzzz... Something like that. Yeah, okay. Later, alligator.

Chris on 12.07.04 @ 01:46 pm [link]