Hello. I thought I may as well write in here. It's been forever. I hate December and January. Every year. They come with some weird stressful vibe. And not because of presents. Buying and choosing them, yada yada. That went okay. It's just the vibe of the time of year. People waiting for the sun? I don't know. Do I say this every year? Maybe.
My back hurts again! But in a different place. It started a few days ago. Right in the middle. I think it's a muscle thing. Cuz I did yoga to align my vertebrae and that didn't help much. HMM. Stressful week. And still going. I have to do my taxes. Possibly tomorrow. You know, if I knew I had to pay taxes (instead of a refund), I might actually wait 'til April. No stress. Or more stress, but later instead of now. See?
I was gonna try Tax Act instead of Turbo Tax, because Turbo Tax created a new option that has Schedule C in it that costs over $70. I don't think so. Pfft. But Tax Act is only $12.95. Duhhhhhh. So, I'll go with that. Also there is the option of copying my tax forms from last year and putting in this year's information. Hmm. If all else fails. But I'm being cheap. No overpriced tax help! Grr.
Yes, I'm still moody. Or maybe moreso. Yeesh. So much to do, so much to do. Okay, so, I'll tell you what I'm up to. I started taking 5HTP again about a month ago, which I do from time to time, and all of a sudden I had this huge great idea out of the blue. Don't laugh at me. I decided to sell books online. I mean physically store books and ship them and the whole deal. Then it changed into books and clothes. Then it changed into books and DVDs. Then I added CDs. Then it was just DVDs. Then it became DVDs and CDs. And now I'm back to maybe I'll throw a few books in there too. Just for kicks. Anyway. It's like I suddenly realized I could never sell enough of my own books to make a living. Or maybe when I'm 80 they will have caught on by then, but not now. Duhhhhhhhh. (My word of the day.) Anyway, what this all led to was me needing to clean my apartment, clean all the crap off my computer that I don't need or use (to speed it up), and learn how to run a business. Whoopie! Very annoying. I found some software to help. A few different things. And articles and tutorials and books to read about the subject. And all in all it's taking way too long for my liking. The silly goal, you see, is to work in a part time way, making a full time amount of money, and finally having time to write. And BREATHE. Pah. But that's always the goal. Writing. Time and money to write. Weehoo!
Time for a paragraph break. Anyway, today's task was to research health insurance options. Even though I spent 14 years without it, I suddenly want to have it. Now that I have had it through my job for a year. Even though I have not used it in any way. I like the security of knowing it's there. I can have a really high deductible and a health savings account or whatever they call it. Makes sense to me. Okay then. I found an acceptable option. I guess next will be to actually clean my apartment and computer. Cuz I haven't actually done that yet.
I have to clean my apartment to make room for storing merchandise. I have a lot of clutter. Okay! Then actually buy some merchandise and get started. And I need a way better accounting method than throwing receipts in a drawer. Sorting through that crap is not fun. I throw all my check stubs and crap in there, with my bills, then I have to sort it at the end of the year. And if I have my own business, I'll have to do taxes quarterly, so I'd really better get my shit together. You see what I mean. Ahhhhh!!!!!!Phew! Many stresses. I guess I'm never just happy with where I am. Nuts. Must always be moving forward. Yikes. Going back to the 5HTP, I started taking it because December and January were stressing me out, which makes me eat more food. Stress eating. Then I gained weight, 5 lbs really, but just enough to make me have to buy a new wardrobe. Cuz I guess I had reached the upper limit of my old wardrobe. And then December pushed it over the edge. Yuck. Very depressing. So, to stop the stress eating, I took 5HTP, which suppresses the appetite. It also calms you down. And helps you sleep. Weeeee..... So, it worked. I stopped gaining weight. And also for some reason had this great business idea. Well, to me it seems great. And kind of like, "Why on Earth didn't I think of this before? Where have I been all these years?" Duhhhhhhh. I say again.
Sheesh, I'm talking a lot today. But I've been saving up blog entry.... ishness for over 2 months now. So, I have a lot to say. Anyway, once I realized I had better try to start a business instead of trying to make my writing a business, I realized it would be okay to give my books away as ebooks. Since I can. Since it didn't cost anything to make the ebooks. So, sometime in the future, maybe soon, when I am less lazy than I am today, I'm going to release free pdf versions of both my novels. On my website and at Lulu.com. And also at a new website I'm working on where I can send people I know, who I don't want to read my blog or see me in computerized goth make-up or watch my death-and-destruction music videos.
What? Like I can't have a private life on the web?! I can now. If I ever actually do get famous, then not so much. The news quotes J.K. Rowling's blog all the time. As official news. Which I guess it is, but yeeks. So much for being casual. I know I won't be super-Rowling-famous, but still. Somewhat better known than I am now, anyway. If my evil schemes go as planned! Geez! ..... No, I have no evil schemes now. The point was to take the pressure of making a living off of my writing life. Now I can just write because I love to write and share it because I want to. But my paperbacks will always cost money to buy. Cuz it's not like they fall off the tree growing outside my window. I have to pay for them too. Hmm.Am I thinking too much out loud? Sucks, don't it? Weeeeee! You should see the boredom glaze over the faces of everyone I know as I detail these plans to them too. "Uh-huh.... yeah.... okay..... zzzzzzz....." Pfft. I gotta talk about it! They're probably thinking, "Oh, another scheme...." Whoop dee doo. Bah. Maybe not. I'm not a mind reader!
Anyway. I do have to get back to procrastinating doing my taxes now. If you don't mind. If you're still reading. Don't doze off! Or do. Maybe your keyboard makes a nice pillow. I don't know. Okay then. Hey, maybe I'll write again before another 2 months goes by. You never know. I do have a lot of mindless crap saved up to say in here. All about TV and movies... and oh, my God, I watched Heavenly Creatures. Frightening! Good up until the ending, and then you realize, "Oh, my God, this really happened." Disturbing. But so well done. Even the end, but at that point I thought maybe I shouldn't have enjoyed this story so much. True crime and all that. See, now you got me talking about it. Darn, you! Okay, I have to go.
Later.
Chris on 02.03.07 @ 06:33 pm [link]