Pulling out my hair

Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!! Hello. I just transferred this site to a new host and it almost drove me crazy. It went fairly smoothly, but... zip files are getting on my nerves. And maybe it was just my own computer, but I couldn't download any of my videos once I had moved them here. Bah! They all said "file is invalid or corrupted" or whatever it is that they say. I think zip files are nifty, though. You just click and your computer says, "Yes, ma'am, where would you like this stored ma'am?" I don't know. Grrrrr!!!!! Except when they don't work at all, randomly. I should try rezipping them, but really, haven't I made enough changes? Zipped, not zipped, zipped. Is anyone paying attention? I guess I'll leave them unzipped for a while and see if my bandwidth gets eaten up more than usual. Cuz I have a lot of it to burn anyway. And maybe I'll get less people saying they can't download my videos. I get a lot of that. I blame Microsoft. (But the files wouldn't download for me using Mozilla Firefox either, that's when I got really pissy. ! Damn zip files! )

Anyway, I just checked out Turbo Tax online. Looks pretty cool. I made very little money last year, but there's something appealing about getting my taxes done exactly right. It's the Virgo perfectionist in me. I can't resist it! Cuz my taxes are more complicated this year. I made money from too many different sources. Just enough money to pay taxes. Yay me. I'm also thinking about using this Quicken software I got sent to me for free for no apparent reason when I ordered Word Perfect. To keep track of all these various money sources. Hmmm.

I may get a cold. But I'm attempting to resist it. I visited a friend yesterday who has a cold. But I refuse to have it! I didn't used to get sick ever. I started eating junk food again, though. Hopefully that holiday season phase is over. January is almost over, you'd think I'd be back to eating right. But it's still winter. I console myself with junk food. We're in a melting phase, though. The rest of the country now has our below zero storm weather, but we have 40 degree days. Flooding, refreezing, treacherous ice. Whoopie! I can't wait 'til it all melts away. I hope it all melts away before the next snowfall. I hate snow with ice underneath it. Then you can't even see where the icy patches are. Double GRRRRR!!!!!!! Yeah, winter can bite me.

I go to the stooooore tonight. I'm buying 2 weeks of groceries so I don't have to go again for a while (well, 2 weeks). Hee. Why this makes me happy I do not know. Random happiness.

I woke up this morning thinking of dyeing my hair red. Again. Do I like it red? Or do I like the natural color? (That being dark brown.) What if I dye it red for years and don't even know when my hair started to turn gray? I'd hate to be so unaware of myself. And so high maintenance too. I even thought up methods to dye my eyebrows. Without hurting my eyes. Because one day years ago when I had dyed my hair red, a stranger (a cashier) said to me, "Why don't you dye your eyebrows too? It looks stupid when you dye your hair and then leave your eyebrows brown." He was almost mad about it, like it was a pet peeve of his I walked into. Heh. But I've been paranoid about it ever since. And now I notice redheads' eyebrows. Alyson Hannigan, Gillian Anderson, Lindsay Lohan, all have brown eyebrows. And I thought to myself, "Ha! Take that, gas station guy!!!!" Cuz LL is an actual redhead, I believe, yes? And I realized women darken their eyebrows with pencil anyway, so a natural redhead would end up having brown eyebrows possibly. Man, has this been a tedious and weird paragraph. Pfft! I don't care.

I should go now. There are other things I have to pretend not to obsess about. Hee.

Chris on 01.23.05 @ 05:48 pm [link]

Finally

It took me long enough to make another entry in here. SHEESH. Um, now what's my point? I just got done voting in the X-Files Video Awards. Except I haven't actually voted yet. I just watched all the videos and decided which ones I will vote for. Yowza. That's a lot of hours. But I discovered some good videos I had never seen before. Including one with MUCH better voiceover work than I am capable of doing at this time. My voiceovers sound like I am whispering into my computer, which is what I am doing. I have absolutely no confidence in my ability to do that stuff. Speaking. Or - it doesn't help that I'm reading my own very personal poetry. And I'm so paranoid my neighbors will hear me and think I'm crazy. Talking to myself, but not even in a normal way. In a sort of.... announcement kind of way. Or, okay, poetry reading kind of way. Blah.... If I had a house I would totally open up and speak up, and then I'm sure some future dog of mine would bark at the wrong moment and ruin it all. But at least I could do it! Bah!

Hey, it's -20 degrees where I am. According to Yahoo. I hate it. It also keeps snowing, and I kept almost sliding into other cars today. They show up out of nowhere and I have to pump the brakes and turn this way and that not to hit them. ARGH! I'm very frustrated in life in general. My Christmas tree is still up. There are dirty dishes in the sink. Apparently I am in a phase of living on cheese and crackers and grapes. I can't make myself do any kind of business work on the computer. I can't make myself write fiction. I have to burn things to CD so I can get them off my hard drive to speed up my computer. And.... write a blog entry. Ha, which I am doing. One less thing. Grrr.

How shocking was Lost the other night?!!!! Oh my God! I can't believe what Boone and Shannon did. So shocking! (I guess I covered that.) I had no idea they weren't blood related. They totally act like brother and sister, all the brattiness. Man, that was shocking! Weeeee!!!!! I like being surprised, so that was cool. I never watch Law and Order, but I did this week and the end of that was kind of cool too. Startling. "What? What now? What happened?" Heh. I thought I just missed something cuz I never watch that show. But I knew they never talk about characters' personal lives on there, so how could I have missed something? That's one of the reasons I never watch. Not enough personal life stuff. Anyhoo, if you don't know what I'm talking about this is a boring paragraph. And I could explain it, but it will sound stupid summarized. So.... no. Lo siento.

My eyes are burning from being on the computer so long. Hey, speaking of TV, ER was not as shocking as the commercials made it look like it would be. I thought Abby was leaving the show or something. But no. Which makes me glad, but.... it was less dramatic than I thought it would be. It was still good, though. See, I thought she would be raped and seriously injured. And I was kind of looking forward to it, cuz I'm sick that way. I thought it would be cool if her pals at the ER had to work on her, like when Carter got stabbed in the ER. Man, I'm warped. I can't help it!!!!!

Speaking of my apparent warpedness. My mother turns to me the other day and says, "Do you believe Jesus Christ died on the cross for your sins?" I said, "What? You don't need to know what I think of the Bible and Jesus and all that stuff." She looked at me intensely and said, "Yes, I do." Then I turned to her and yelled, "Get your Pod Person ass out of here and bring back my mother from whatever planet you are holding her hostage on!!!!" Okay. That last part I made up.

Anyway. I have to pee. That's as good a reason as any to end a blog entry. I cannot tell you how many entries in my paper diary end with, "I have to pee." Way too many not to be embarrassing. Hee.

Later, peeps.

Chris on 01.15.05 @ 03:38 am [link]

Happy New Year!

Did I not just say I wouldn't be making another music video until summer? What is wrong with me?!??! No, but it's a good thing. I like making music videos. I made it in two days. Which means I have no life. I had nothing else to do. I mean I could have sat around like usual watching TV, but hey. It's all because of a guestbook entry. I realized people do like my particular style of video making. So, I made another video. My videos aren't very sweet and romantic. They have a lot of action and anger and whatnot. I think people would rather see mushiness in videos, but I can't make them that way. I plan to make some romantic videos, but they will have angst in them. "I love him, but I must die...." That kind of angst. Not that anything like that ever occurred on the show, but muahahhahahahaha!

I don't know. It's too early in the day for thoughts. I had to get up early. It's some weird side effect from the sleeping pills. I took them for a week and now I can't change my sleep schedule back to normal. I tried. When I was making the video I stayed up later than usual, but I still woke up like clockwork at 10am every day. So, I only got 4 or 5 hours of sleep on those nights. I went to bed at 2am last night and woke up at 9:30 this morning! Madness! For two days after I stopped taking the pills I had a constant headache. I only had 2 aspirin (okay, acetaminophen) left, so for 6 hours on the second day, I was headache-free, but then it came back. Then I just started drinking a lot of water, and that seemed to help. Wow! Sleeping pills are nastier than I thought. And somehow I'm thinking when they are over the counter they aren't called "sleeping pills", even though that's what they are. They are called "sleep aids" or "sleep enhancements" or something. I don't know. Maybe they are referred to as sleeping pills. I can't spell today! You just don't know!

You know why I make videos? Partly anyway. I make them so I can watch them! I go, "Oh, there's no video on this subject. I want to see one. I will make one for myself to watch." Lalala. Geeky. But then I get very happy when other people enjoy them too. Weeeee!

God, I wish I wasn't up yet while the sun is still shining. Oh, hey, my car froze shut the other day. The car doors were frozen shut. And I called my mother and said, "My car doors are frozen shut. You have to come pick me up." And she says, "Why don't you just start the car and warm it up and then the car doors will open." "The car is frozen shut!" "Do you have a block heater?" "Hello?! The car would start fine if I could get into it! The car is frozen shut!" "Okay, repeat that. What's happening?" That's an actual conversation I had with my mother. ROTFLMAO!!!! She was watching TV and not actually paying attention to me. Finally she realized action was required on her part, "Oh, I have to come pick you up." "Yeessssssss." Heehehehee.

Also the other day a cat got into my car. My mother's neighbor's cat. It got in once before. It just comes over to me and says, "Oh, you're home!" And it got into my car when I was trying to get my laundry out. And it just climbed into my back window and laid down. Lallaaaaa.... So I went inside and left the car door open for a minute and I came back out and it had just moved into the front seat. It looked at me like, "What? We're not going anywhere?" I lured it out of the car by wiggling my fingers. I don't know why animals like that. Wiggle your fingers next to the ground and they're all like, "Oo! Wiggling fingers! I must check that out!" Cats, dogs, whatever. Anyway, it gets out of my car and then follows me to the front door of my mom's house and stretches itself up to scratch the door, "Okay! Let's go in now!" Okay, no, you're not coming in with me. "What?! Madness!" Heh. So, I managed to squeeze in the front door without the cat. I didn't think the dog would enjoy me bringing in a cat. She used to be so afraid of cats I once heard her actually scream like a human. It was so funny! LOL. (I hate "LOL", but I must use it!)

Okay, I must go. I'm annoyed with myself. I can't believe I'm awake at this hour. This ungodly early hour of.... noon. Whatever! It's ungodly!!!!!

(Later. )

Chris on 01.01.05 @ 12:29 pm [link]